yesterday was so dark for me. I find myself walking like a zombie. The sorrow and pain of whats to come kills me inside as i see my family. My little nephew and nieces . 7 , 4 , and a year old baby. I was holding her in my arms thinking how much i love her.

The pain became unbearable . I had wished i had never been born , or that there was some way i could save my family , that i could protect them. I had given up hope withen , i just wanted to lay down and die. I had been surrounded by devils for as far as i can remember. Testing and temptation from EVERY angle. I had lost hope and faith , i didnt want to reach out anymore , i didnt want to do anything but die.

I had a dream in my heart . A dream that was born when the Almighty cast demons out of me years ago. Before i knew what was to come , before i knew what would be. And i had longed inside , and desired to be , and that which i desired i believed to be Gods will , His Desire for me.
Slowly all hope began to fail , drowned in this pool of sorrow and dispair , as i held my joy in my hands , even my little niece , who in ignorance had joy , which gave me a small light to see her face. I just want to hold her tight and never let her go.

After i had got home i visited this site ,and read the post about the sleeping beauty , and the post the servant made , Lord is comeing Lord is comeing.

And i was overwhelmed , i felt as the foolish virgin who had no oil. I was so full of fear and sorrow. then i looked and visited a site i had not been to in a while, as i read what i had hoped was the word of the Lord. I heard as it were the voice of a friend. A Father , and it felt so good. I had longed for so long to hear Gods kind voice to me again.

I began to watch a little bit of the passion of the Christ , And i saw Him there in the Garden , I saw that He too was once where i am. This gave me such hope that He hears me , Because He too was also so overwhelmed with fear and surrounded by devils , and tormented with pain and sorrow. And i watched till He was brought before the counsel , and how they misjudged Him , and treated Him without Justice. Oh the things Christ suffered for us!

Lord God we can bearly see! Even with all that we have seen , what are we to do? What is our place ? Will you fight for your saints? Comfort us Lord. Deliver us ! If it be your will , then deliver us from this destruction and death thats to come. But as you said so be it , let your will be done not ours.

As i layed down to sleep the storm had seemed to pass , i began to feel light . As if my burdens were being lifted. I praised God and thanked God for His Mercy. As i lay there in the bed it came to mind to eat of the communion , in which because of sin i had not eaten of for a long time.
I asked the Lord to help me , as to what i should say before i ate , and asked the Lord to make me worthy. I thanked God after i ate , and it was as if my eyes were being opened.

Oh what a great thing that was , for so long it as been sence i have been in the presence of God that way. I had missed my Friend , my Father. I Praised God and Praised God because He had lifted me up .

For my sin began to be clear to me these past days , and reading the first 7 chapters of Jerimiah , i also began to see. That i was in sin , and because of it i was in darkness.

So i was Praiseing God because though i am nothing , and have failed God , and that i was so far in sin , and so deep in trouble. And that death was at my door , That God in His Great Mercy heard my Prayer , and forgave me , and also lifted me up again , gave me peace , and has begun to open my eyes. And that now i see all the more clearly that ALL Praise goes to God , for i was nothing , and He lifted me and made me someone for Him.

Thank you God for not destroying me!! i was worthy , but you saved me in your Mercy!! Praise you Lord and thank you for keeping me!! Now use me to fullill your will , to all of your delight. In Jesus name i pray , let your will be done.

I dont think that these devils are going to give up on me. And im trying to believe again , im trying to have faith again. If its on your heart , or if God tells you to , will you pray for me? I want to be filled with Gods Spirit and fullfill His Will.

the devils that i feel usualy come against me are fear , doubt , depression , death , pride , lust , disbeliefe ,and shame In which sometimes they all at the same time come against me. Im haveing a hard time lifting my shield anymore , its because i can hardly use the sword . I feel so drained and so tired.

Last night after i ate the communion , i had prayed that the Lrod would give me a word to confirm what has been happening with me and Him , and that if He indeed has lifted me again that He would give me a word , so that i might believe in the Word and have faith again. Now i can harly trust the voices in my head , but , it was as if a voice told me , have Faith again and i will give you a word of confirmation.
So here i stretch out again , Doubtless the Lord has delievered me from my sin , and has Lifted me to Himself again. And surley as He has brought me this far , He will yet bring me all the way. Surley His Mercy will follow me all the days of my life. Praise and thanks to God! My Salvation , my Redeemer! My Shield , my Sword ! My Father , my Friend! Praise God! And let His Will be done! Come Lord Jesus Come!

505. Prophecy given to Raymond Aguilera on 23 July 1994 at 7:48 AM. in Spanish.


Horn. Horn. Horn. The Horn has arrived. Raise your hands. Jump with joy and dance with joy. Tell all of your male and female friends about the Horn of Heaven with the music of God, with the music of the Father, with the music of the Son, with the music of the Holy Spirit. Here it comes. Here it is the Horn of Heaven. Hurry, hurry, hurry, open your ears. Jump and dance the joy of God, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.

This is your Father, the One who made everything with the Lips, with the Word, with the Force of the Holy Spirit. Yes, the Horn of Heaven has arrived. Hurry, run, and look for your cap, your shoes, your belt, your stick to throw at the demons. All that protects you in the Word of God. Yes, arm yourself, arm yourself with the Word of God. Read the Bible and it will show you how to arm yourself.

Then with all the armor, gather with the rest that have the armor. All together stand there in front and begin to fight with the Word of God for the war has started. The war of what is the good with what is bad, but you cannot fight if you are not armed. Yes, it has arrived, the things of God, in the manner of God. Yes, My little Ones, all the ones that want to fight with the Word of God. You have to arm themselves for there is the Horn of Heaven. Yes, making the music of Heaven. Hurry! Begin, begin

Ah, st_joel, my long-time friend,

Peace and joy and love and mercy to you (and all of you as well)

Grace and peace in the LORD Jesus Christ our Salvador.

God says to sharpen that sword, and be at peace.

I will protect you through everything and everyone prophet joel... SO many tears, so many words, yet the over is not (yama) yet over.

You are, you are, you are.............. a blessing to Me and to thouse around you. Around you are....and Around you are...... Amen.

Prophecy, joel, prophecy, and let your Word (the Word that is in you) guide you shama shama shama (meaning the LORD is there).

I should say, Let the Lighte shine in the dark. Breakthrough Breakthrough april may showers breakthrough yamashira forever. 12. Amen.

years ago when i promised jesus i would bring people to him ,i couldn't figure out how to do it ,then after a little while god told me to start with my family which brought great joy to my heart,they all read the bible almost daily now and have grown greatly in the spirit,then after that the holy spirit shows me now who to awaken and every one iv'e found thinks exactly like me nomatter what religious denomination they were,so just keep your faith in the lord and you might be surprised one day at the difference you've made with your loved ones
yours in christ mark