ive been under alot of spiritual attack for days and days now. Ive had fearfull dreams now for the past couple of days. Ive been physicly unable to sleep . For about 2 or so hours i will try and sleep , and be awakened by a force that feels as if its peircing me , just as im about to doze off. It feels as if im falling. You know when your dreaming? and you fall off of building , and that feeling you get right before you hit the ground? That strong feeling that makes you awake? Thats what that piercing feeling feels like , and i awake , this goes on for while.

When i do sleep , all i dream is fearfull dreams . Judgement , the Storm , Darkness. Which got me thinking that even God Himself is against me now.

Last night i reached my piont , and i just let go. All of this bringing me down , all of this attack , all of this warning and fear and rebuke and so forth. It all pointed to my destructionn , so i said fine. so be it. What let ever is be , but i will still Praise you God. So i just kept Praiseing God , and thanking Him because of all He has done for me. As i was still fighting to sleep , because of the attack against me. I said it , even if God is against me , i will still Praise Him. And He is Worthy.

I went to sleep after praying for help , and for mercy. And praying for blue and revival girl and all else i could think of at that point , for i was very tired. After i awoke for once in a long time , it wasnt a fearfull dream. But i had felt the Healing of God in it. Yet when i awoke there was a rebelloin in me. A pride. I had to renew my mind , so i Praised God and some other things happened while i was awake. Then about 2 hours or so later i went back to sleep. And had this dream , which is why i posted this to begin with .

This dream was amazingly insightfull to me.

In the dream i was walking up the street . the street that is right in front of my grandpas house. He was out in the yard doing something . I waved high to him as he was going in. It was dark out. As i was walking up the street this little white dog comes up to me. It started talking to me. I was so happy i just knew it had to be God. He wanted me to follow him , i agreed and started in the other direction. He gave me the address to where he said he dwelt , some adress i cant remember , but i remember the street , it was parkway lane or something llike that , he said by the broken sign is my dwelling place.

Heading down the street , this dog now becomes a man , and yet for me in the dream its not noticeable. As i got to the end of the street , to the intersectoin i heard a voice in my head say to me. Dont follow him. So i thought the voice was satans trying to keep me from folling God. So i tested the Voice , and asked , did Jesus Christ come in the Flesh , the Voice said Yes!

So i began to back up and go the other way , all the while this man knew nothing of what i just found out. He was just over joyed that i was folling him. just the nicest guy. He said to me ,here use this , and he shot some kind of bio stuff into the back of his neck , it left a blue dot. ( this reminds me of the aliens) he seen that i wasnt folling him and came forth to follow after me. He was trying to speak as if he was God leading me , and yet he was saying alot of things without really saying anything at all. He began to get frustrated as to why i wouldnt follow him. i knew all this time that it was satan himself.

Finialy i got up about ten feet away from him and said ok , i will follow you if you say this one thing. And he waiting ... i said say, Praise Jesus. Thats when he transformed from look like a man to looking like Spawn.

(To those who dont know who spawn is , hes a comic book character , a man who went to hell and was sent back from hell to bring about the destruction of the earth. and he looks like a fire victim. )

He was Furious , he said , i dont praise dogs. and so forth and alot of stuff i really didnt want to hear , i stopped in the street and was speaking contrary to what he was saying. Thats when he headed towards me , as if he was going to kill me and destroy me. I became afraid , i uttered out as fast as i could a rebuke agains him in the name of Jesus. He got so close to me and threw his arm at me as if he was going to hit me , but he didnt touch me. ( Praise God He cant Touch us! ) as he was going back the other way from me , i noticed a man in black , he was in my grandpas yard , he was spraying a water hose on this spawn looking guy.

After that i met up with the Holy Father. He was sitting down in a chair of some sort , i went and sat on the floor and bowed my head towards Him. I thanked Him for delivering me , and i said something like , i wasnt ready for that. He said , yes you were. then i asked what do you mean? and there was a momentary pause it seems there were others comeing to Him and going from Him. Then He turned and answered me , that i needed to see that , i dont remember the exact words , but He was implying i needed to see that , and especialy because of the time that is to come. After that some other things were happening , i watching others fixing a sing , and i spoke up because he wasnt useing a washer , i told him it would just leak , so the rest of the dream i was looking for the right sized washers to use.

After awakening , i noticed that the guy dressed in black spraying the hose was BlueRiverTrib. I heard a voice say that Hes been praying for me.

Thank you blue and all else who have been praying for me.

Im telling you its rough here. I get so close to death. so close. People just dont understand. When its as if God is against you because of what He shows you , then you cant hardly recieve counsel from a man as to your situation , because they cant possibley understand. Its one thing to endure the attack of satan. But being decieved is something i cannot control. Oh im wondering how the rest of these days are going to be. It seems the attacks are going to keep comeing , which i dont care anymore , as long as God gets me where i need to be , and Keeps me in Right standing with Him by the Blood of Jesus Christ.

Keep Praiseing God ! and Let His Will be done

Hi St Joel,
I don’t know if this relates or not, probably not. When I worked nights I worked with a girl, who said to me on night, “I used to be psychic” that one day she was psychic, all of a sudden just like that. She said one day she just new things, about people. She knew they were going to have a flat tire on the way home and then it would happen, other things too she would tell people and warn them, kind of help them she thought this went on for a while and started getting weird. One Sunday at church she prayed and said to the Lord if this is not from take it away, I don’t want it. She never had it again, ever.

These dreams you have, if your under attack from Satan, you will prevail, pray for comfort and deliverance. If the Lord has something to say and wants you to see and understand something you will see and understand he will explain and send you where you need to be. He won’t allow you to suffer more then you can handle. Pray about this. Don’t assume it is from God or that he has anything to do with it, or think you have to handle it on your own because it’s from God and he is putting you through this, if he is you will get through and be stronger. Question and ask the Lord to take it away if it’s not from him, he will. The bad dreams, the sleeplessness and anxiety about what is to come, everything about what you are going through. Keep writing down your dreams and trying to understand them. Pray and if this is not from him he will take it away.

Be still and know I am God. He gives us peace that is beyond understanding. A pure heart and a sound mind. He is righteousness and truth; he can’t be anything else that is his nature. He loves you, and he’s on your side, believe it, it’s a must. I know it’s difficult we all have it rough sometimes, I don’t claim to understand what your going through. But God, his son Jesus and the Holy Spirit do know exactly what’s happening and what is to come. I will pray for you.

God Bless,
MerMer Rae

The story you just wrote in about the girl being psychic...it reminds me of in the bible how we're constantly warned to stay clear of mediums and psychics, witches, etc. Because the thign is they can see the future..Satan can give people powers as well as God, but God always has the upper hand. He'll let him rule to bring forth these end times then God will show who has ultimate power in the end.

As far as dreams I've been having really strange dreams again, and all I know is some are from God, some are spiritual in nature where the devil is attacking me, and some are just so completely random I don't even know what they are. But the dream you had reminds me of one last night that I think was just the devil trying to get me off course. My little cousin was in it the one who has the 3 people in her head, I wrote about her last week, and she was at my house here where her room was when we had custody of her for about a year when she was 2/3 years old. And in the dream she started shaking voilently and one of the demons in her head was using her, so I knew she was now posessed in it. So my mom and my dad held her down, and Im like just keep holding her I'll be right up. So I went downstairs to where my holy oil was and blessed myself and the house quickly came up and did it to my parents then I started doing it to my cousin. And she got up and went downstairs, so I began doing it around her room first and when I started doing it, the demon actually was standing in the room beside me mocking me, but it was in the form of a person. I just kept rebuking through Jesus name and kept laying the oil around the room....and then I woke up. I don't know the outcome.

It's up for discernment right now, because why I wrote in about my little cousin (she's 9 now) is because she was staying with us for like a week last week or two weeks ago maybe it was, and the demons came back out in her head and were trying to attack my family just like when it happened when she was 3. And so my dad and I were going to bless the house with oil and annoint it, to concentrate on keeping these thigns away from us and Lily when she's here. I had my oil with me down in pittsburgh, and my dad and got it this past week and just brought it back on tues. So I don't know if these dream is telling me to do it, or that it won't work, or what. It's just up for discernment right now is all Iknow . But I've had many dreams where there have been people...as in a human being i know or just a person who are demons, and I am told to stay away from them or not look at them or allow them to touch me in dreams. And also in those dreams, I'm going to find my dad or searching for my dad to help strengthen me because he has the holy spirit strong in him. I think prayer warriors do just that, he was probably praying for me during those times, and we can all interact in the spiritual realm no matter where we are, so I think that's why BlueRT was in your dream, it was a way of giving you two the upper hand to satan in it. So I truly think this was a spiritual attack on you, and it will drain you but all you can do in it is keep faith. God knows what's going on and is protecting you. Yours in Christ, Stephanie

No one can tell you if your dreams are from the Lord, if you feel they are or aren’t what matters is what you think and feel about them.

All this dream talk reminded me of a dream or dreams my aunt used to have. She is married to my uncle who is a preacher in Missouri. She told of dreams where she was in a room and these people where torturing her grandson, and saying to her deny him, just deny Jesus and we will stop. Her grandson was little then, He has since died. He died young though in his early thirties I think. We aren’t that close to their children and grandchildren they live in Missouri, but my aunt and uncle we were and they used to visit a lot when I was growing up. My aunt is very close to the Lord and would talk about her dreams and other stuff, like almost having a car accident and the car went through the car, it just went through it. I think she saw it that she was watching some loved one drive away and saw the one car just go right through the other one. And other dreams and vision like floating above her bed one time when she was ill and praying in the Spirit. She floated up and in the ceiling there was a white door and when she floated up to the door it would open, but she would say no not yet my children and she would close the door.

Another aunt of mine saw a vision once in church, I was young about ten I was sitting next to her when all of sudden during the sermon she jumped up walked all the way down the isle to the front of the church. This was so strange I thought oh my what’s going on. She got the pastors attention and told him something no one new what at the time. The pastor asked the deacons to come and they all laid hands on her and prayed for her.

Then she seemed calmer and told me what happened. While she was just stilling listening in church, she saw in a vision her son, running through an orange grove, then she saw him with blood poring out of his head. That was the last thing she saw, her son laying on the ground in the dirt with blood coming out of the side of his head, like he had been shot. That’s when she jumped up and ran down the isle to get prayed for, to stand in for her son.

We all found out a little bit later that at that very moment he was running for his life in an orange grove from these guys he gave a ride to or took a ride from in Mexico. I was ten when this happened so I’m not totally sure how he got into the situation but I was there and remember what my aunt went through and know that what happened was true. For some reason he was in a bar in Mexico or near the border. I think and he was asked to give these guys a ride or for some reason he needed a ride and they said they would give him one. At some point in the ride, they turned on him and were going to rob him and kill him. He understood enough Spanish to get what they were planning and he opened the car door and rolled out and ran and tried to hide in this orange grove, while running and hiding he could here them looking for him. They did not find him and he was okay.

But sometimes I think about it and I don’t totally understand because he is not saved. He was raised in church. I think deep down he believes, but he lives a sinful life. He was never a faithful husband and although he’s not married now, he is a real womanizer you know. He’s wealthy and kind of lives like a rock star. His mother my aunt passed away some twenty years ago, but her son has never really came to the Lord. I wonder sometimes what was God saving him for. There must have been a reason RIGHT. I’m sure one day I’ll know the answer. Well again I’m not totally sure why I posted this; I guess all the dream talk.

God Bless,
MerMer Rae