Today, I came in and told my boss at work that I was leaving in three days. This the LORD told me to do at 12 noon, but I have been deceived so many times, I am weary, and I wonder who is the LORD and who is the Dark Side.

Three weeks ago I made a time sheet and put the remaining days on it. It ended on Thursday, July 26, 2005.

I have either completely lost all sense or have just done the LORD's Will.

Then I just received a Private Message from st_joel that he found a better job for himself. I don't know at this point, I am at a complete loss for words, and I brought Mary Kay Baxter's book 'A DIVINE REVELATION OF HELL' with me to work. Why, I don't have no idea.

So I am out to lunch, and all I know is, when the time ended on our meeting, it was :33. Thirty-three is the number for Christ because He was crucified in that year of His life. When He fulfilled His Mission on the earth, and it also holds other meanings.

I would love to use the chatroom sometime. Great idea!

GOd Bless you all
BlueRiverTributaries

PS Could someone help me on this?

Praise God for His Mercy and Grace to us.


Dont let yourself be troubled blue , i will tell you what ive learned about hearing the devils voice. i seen him face to face , and have heard him time after time. hes very tricky and clever , let me teach you the the details of his voice. Compared to Gods.

He does call you son , so be aware. When he speaks , .... ah this is harder to explain than i thought it would be.

he has a way of saying something , without saying anything at all. Test him! now when testing , this is how you know its NOT God. When you ask if Jesus Christ came in the FLesh , and he gives you an answer before you finish your sentence. Or way later . God has a timing when He answers us. Its Clear and to the point. God does not talk while we are talking. Hes a Gentlemen.

Thats one way that you can tell. he half talks , he starts to say something , and expects you to finish the sentence. DONT , Dont finish his sentences. You will see , he begins to talk , but doesnt finish talking.

HE WILL ABSOLUTLY NOT PRAISE JESUS , he says IAM GOD , not as the TRUE GOD SAYS it , but he says it with pride , with anger , for he hates the True God.

Blue ive been hearing him alot lately. In another dream i had , let me share it.

In the dream i remember casting out devils out of family members. Praise God!! after that i remember walking in a field , there was a man , in the spirit i knew he was a prophet , and called to be one. There were two other men. One was possessed.

The prophet took the possessed man and sat him down , and he was at peace , the prophet took oil and annointed his right arm , left arm , and forehead. Thats when the other guy spoke up , he said what are you guys doing? Then i known him to be a pastor , i said just watch and see.

Thats when i stood up and said Satan , in the name of Jesus Christ i command you to come out of him. COME OUT!

and it was no matter of faith , for my faith and confidence was sure. But the man who was possessed stood up. He said I AM GOD! and this began to be really funny to me , because he said i live in a big house , i eat raw spinish , i couldnt help but laugh at this. The dream i dont know how to interpret , but satan thinks hes God , and will REFUSE to Praise Jesus as God , that is until that day When all tounges shall confess and all Knees bow.

If at anytime blue , your not sure if its God speaking to you. DONT DO IT. God will make His Calling Sure , and His Voice is Clear and to the Point. He does not make you finish His Sentences.

Other than that blue , thats the beginning of what im learning , yes for me its a challenge as well. Its sad i hear satan more than God. And im so tired of him leading me astray , pretending to be God.

Now conserning your job. DONT DISPAIR. You seen that God gave me a job . If by any means you were decieved , then Surely God is well able to give you another job. Im thinking the Lord has another plan for you. A good and great plan. Encourage yourself in the Lord and Trust in HIm. As He did me , so with you , He will lead you out of Deception.

i think you mean tuesday right? you said thursday , thursday july 26 doesnt come til 2007

Any how Bless the Lord Blue , Hes moving you forward in His Plans. Take courage. Il be praying that God will give you desernment on the voices that speak to you. As He has been me. Again thank you for praying for me.

Lord Jesus Teach us to desern your Voice from our own and from our enemys. When you speak to us Lord , confirm who You are to us when we ask. I Praise You Lord , and i miss hearing your Voice. I miss talking with You. I bless what your doing in blues life , Use him with Power , giveing him all utterance to preach the Truth with boldness and with WISDOM. Bring to light Lord Jesus our enemy who is in the dark to us. Make manifest the Truth of both Your ways and our enemeys ways. That he may no more lead us astray. I PRAISE YOU LORD. You alone are God , You alone are Worthy of Praise . Set Your path before your son blues feet. and Lighten his eyes. Keep him in the way , and use him to the Fullness of Your Delight , in Jesus name i pray for my brother Lord Jesus , and for all your children. Let Your will be done

im saddened at the mention of july 26 . did you read the dream i had? i dont know what happen today. or if its next years , or the year after that. Im saddened and discauraged , i have no clue whats going on.

I will encaurage myself in the Lord , I wont dispair , neither will i hold to fear. I will Trust in the Lord and not what i feel.

Lead us out of deception Lord Jesus , and make us not ashamed to Trust in you. Praise You Lord Jesus , Praise You Lord , You are Worthy , yes Trust Worthy , and Worthy of ALL Praise Glory and Honor. To You alone be the Praise of Our Salvation. We Trust in You Lord and Not what we Feel.

BRT,

Test the spirits.

34. Prophecy given to Raymond Aguilera on 22 January 1991 in English and Spanish and Non- understandable tongues.

Special Note:

Please read this Prophecy very carefully and Judge it with the eyes of Jesus Christ of Nazareth and with the Bible. This Prophecy was given to me a few hours after a pastor tried to arrest me at a church elder's home, after I had asked for prayer from the elder. During the spiritual warfare, that developed during this prayer time, the elder called the head pastor of our church to assist with the prayer session, after arriving, he took over the home, and the next thing I knew, I was surrounded by five policemen.

This Prophecy has some questionable words, which I doubt are scriptural. Therefore, I am going to show you with brackets like this { }. My comments will be in brackets like this ( ); Demonic words in brackets like this [ ]. The only reason I am placing this Prophecy in here is because it refers to testing all spirits, and it shows how I did during this Prophecy.

Spanish:

Look at My Son. My Son Jesus. My Son Jesus. Yes, My Sons and My Daughters. Hear Me! Hear Me! This is your Father. Your Father, your God, your God, your God, look. Look at what I am telling you. This world, this world has to change, has to change My Sons and My Daughters, for if it doesn't change, the devil is going to win, but he can't win all of them. For those that are going to go with My Jesus, with My Jesus, My Son are going to save themselves, but today there are many people that have hard heads. They only hear what they want. What a shame! What a shame! What a shame My Sons and Daughters. This is your Father! This is your Father! Hear Me! Hear Me!

English:

Listen to Me Ray, this is your Father. This is your Father, Ray! Test the spirits. Test the spirits. Keep testing them for you will be under attack again. Don't worry, I am with you......

This is a demonic voice:

[you're in my hands lord, you're in my hands]......

Ray: Did Jesus Christ come in the flesh....? Did Jesus Christ of Nazareth come in the flesh....? Did Jesus Christ of Nazareth come in the flesh....? (There was no response. So I said,) "I bind you, and I rebuke you in the Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth." "Now, go wherever the Lord Jesus Christ sends you." Did Jesus Christ of Nazareth come in the flesh?....

Lord: "Yes, Ray." Jesus Christ of Nazareth came in the flesh.

Ray: Did Jesus Christ on Nazareth die for our sins on the cross?.....

Lord: "Yes, Ray!"

Ray: Was Jesus Christ of Nazareth resurrected on the third day?.....

Lord: "Yes, Ray!"

Ray: Is Jesus Christ of Nazareth seated at the right Hand of the Father?....

Lord: "Yes, Ray!"

Ray: Does Jesus Christ of Nazareth deserve all the Honor, Glory, and Authority and Dominion now, and forever and ever?....

Lord: "Yes, Ray, and then more and then more. Jesus Christ of Nazareth is My Son. He is My Son, Ray.

Keep testing the spirits, Ray. Keep testing the spirit for you are going to be under attack. They are going to try to mislead you so you go the wrong way, but listen to Me, Ray. Listen to Me, open your ears, and your eyes. For this is Jehovah talking to you, Ray.

You know what happened today with the Pastor. It's not Pastor X's fault. It's not Pastor X's fault. He is being influenced by outside forces, but you have to remember, Ray, he is the leader of My Flock there. He is the leader of My Flock there, but listen to him, but don't do as he does. He has an ego problem! He has a big chest and too much vanity. He is insecure. He has a lot of good wisdom, but he came against Me tonight. He let his pride over take him. He let his hard head take over.

So listen to Me, Ray. This is what I am going to do to him. I am not going to tell you when, but I am going to tell you his mental capacity is going to get harder. He is going to get more insecure. His anxieties are going to get higher. His sanity is going to be right on the line. There are times he is going to feel insane. I am telling you this Ray, so you will watch him. You watch him, and you learn.

For if a pastor goes against you, when you're prophesying, or if I am speaking through you in tongues, he is going against Me, God Jehovah. So you watch, you watch. Don't try to intercede for him, Ray, let go! Let Go! You were just doing My Bidding.

You asked for prayer, and he called the police on you. That's not the kind of leader I want leading My Flock. So, you watch Ray. You watch what's going to happen. No use trying to intercede for him, or fast for him. He had the free will to open his mind, his eyes, and his ears, but he went after you with vengeance, and the vengeance was toward Me, because it was not you there Ray, it was your Father, the Holy Spirit, and Christ. I want you to learn, I want you to learn from this experience, Ray.

You're growing a lot. I know, I read your heart. You were going to go to jail for Me, you were going to go to jail for Me. You know, Ray, that warms My Heart, but I wouldn't let that happen. I wouldn't let it go that far. You are My Prophet, you are My Apostle. I am training you, Ray. Listen to Me, I am training you, so far, you have done everything I have told you to do, even the threat of going to jail.

So, as of today, things are going to start looking better for you, Ray, financially, spiritually, and that wife that I promise you, is going to start coming around, but I want you to listen to Me, Ray. I don't want these things to go to your head, but watch Pastor X, because there are going to be many Pastor X's after him, some will be good, some will be indifferent, some are going to be mean. You listen to the Holy Spirit, and the Holy Spirit will tell you what to do.

You do have those powers that I told you earlier in a Prophecy, but Ray just do, and be guided by the Holy Spirit. For you are not going to do anything bad, or evil to anyone. The Holy Spirit will guide, and lead you in the path of righteousness. So Ray, if you ever feel bad for any Pastor, or Priest, or Elder listen to this tape some day, Listen to it, and remember.

Remember what I said, watch Pastor X. Pastor X...., I am sorry to say, I can't have the leader of My Flock going against God, which is Me. We have to unite the Body of Christ. We have to unite the Body of Christ. Listen to Me, Ray. Everything that happened today was not because of you. It was in My Plan, it was in My Plan to see how far you would go, for Jehovah. I know now that I chose the right man, but I knew all along, what you would do, but see what you have learned. Listen, Ray, the jobs, the money, the happiness, the wife, the kids, everything is going to happen, but place NO man before Me."

demonic: [lord.......] (Did not mean Jesus Christ)

Lord: "Ray, test the spirit, Now! Test the spirit, Now!"

Ray: "Did Jesus Christ of Nazareth come in the flesh?..... Did Jesus Christ of Nazareth come in the Flesh?.... Did Jesus Christ die for our sins on the cross?..... (There was no response. So I said,) I bind you, and I rebuke you in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth. I send you to wherever Jesus Christ of Nazareth wants to send you. I bind you now and I rebuke you in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ..... Go!"

Lord: "I am back, Ray." Ray: "Who's back?.....

Lord: "This is your Father Jehovah."

Ray: "Did Jesus Christ of Nazareth come in the Flesh?...."

Lord: "Yes, Ray."

Ray: "Did Jesus Christ of Nazareth die for our sins on the cross?.....

Lord: "Yes,"

Ray: "Was Jesus Christ of Nazareth resurrected on the third day?...."

Lord: "Yes."

Ray: "Is Jesus Christ of Nazareth seated at the right Hand of the Father?.... Does Jesus Christ of Nazareth deserve all the Honor, Praise, Glory, and Authority now, and forever, and ever?...."

Lord: "Yes, Ray."

Ray: "Did Jesus Christ of Nazareth come in the flesh?...."

Lord: "Yes, Ray."

Ray: "Jesus Christ is that you?"

Jesus: "Yes."

Ray: "Did Jesus Christ of Nazareth come in the flesh?..."

Jesus: "Yes."

{See Ray, see how easy the enemy can slip in, even when We are talking.} "Always test the spirits, always test the spirits, never forget Ray, test the spirits, as much as you want, as often as you want, in the middle of a conversation stop, and test the spirits. There is quite a battle going on now Ray. There is witchcraft involved, you have your people praying for you, and the enemy has their people praying for you too, but they're not praying for your good, but listen to Me, Ray. You're in the Hands of the Lord Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit, and the Father. Nothing is going to happen to you, Ray.

Ray: "Who is talking to me, now?"

Father: "This is the Father, this is the Father. Ray, I chose you, before you were born. I chose you, before you were born, just to do what you're doing now. You still have a hard head, but I can see it, I can see you changing little by little, just hang in there, give yourself some time.

The Lord Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit, and Jehovah will change you. We will remold you, We will guide you. So Ray, when I tell you I love you, I mean it. When I tell you I love you, I mean it. When I tell you I love you, I mean it.

So Ray, I know you don't feel nervous, or anxiety after tonight, after the confrontation that's because I filled you up with the Holy Spirit. You feel Peace, you feel Tranquility, but Pastor X doesn't' feel it at all.

Why? Because He was wrong. He was wrong, and it is going to get worse with him, and you are going to get better, but test the spirits, test the spirits. When you hear the wrong word, or the wrong syllable, test it, but I am going to have the Holy Spirit remind you. He is going to remind you, when to test the spirit. You will get that discernment, that feeling. So test the spirit when it doesn't feel right, Ray.

For I am your Father, I am the Father of all, and I chose you, Ray, to carry My Word to tell My Children My Message. I am not going to tell you anything that's not in the Bible. You will reveal some new things that aren't in the Bible, but these are things that are going to happen, some parts are in the Bible, but I didn't tell everything. There are a few things that have to be completed. So everything, everything is in the Bible, but some of the things were not elaborated, but very minor things.

I am your God, I am Jehovah. I am in charge with My Son, and the Holy Spirit. So Ray, you're going to be subjected to all kinds of things. You hang in there, you are going to be with Me in Heaven, but like I said, you'll have it easy.

You'll have it easy compared to the other Apostles. You'll have it easy, you'll be able to heal people. You will be able to heal people. You will have Visions and Prophecies, and Ray, you will be able to tell good from bad. You will be able to tell when a Pastor is lying and insincere, and trying to lead you astray, but don't worry about such things. The Holy Spirit will guide you, and tell you.

I am not going to leave you alone. No way, Ray. I am never going to leave you, for We have a mission. The war has started, and I need you strong on the planet. You are doing a good job. You are doing a good job, but its going to be a long battle, that's why I am giving you a wife, two kids, any day now, Ray. Any day things will start to look up for you. For sure financially, things will start looking up spiritually; and your love life, you and your mate are going to start talking very soon, a little at a time, but you'll start, and what I told you earlier will happen. For I am your God, and your God does not Lie.

Your God is the Righteous, and the Truth, and I love you both. I wouldn't want anything harmful to happen to either one of you, but Ray just sit back, pray, minister, and let Me handle that end of it. I will be changing her. I will change you, but it will happen because I am your Father, and I have a covenant with you, and I never forsake My Apostles. I never forsake My Apostles, or My Prophets. Remember that, Ray.

When you run across a problem, think: How would Christ handle it? How would Jesus Christ handle that problem?" And then do the best you can, and solve it the way Christ would solve it. So Ray, that's about all I can tell you right now. Be Strong. Be Humble. Be Meek. Poor Pastor X, but watch Pastor X, watch him, Ray. Like I said to you, don't confront him. Don't avoid him, but just watch, and you will know, that I am your Father in Heaven, the Father of fathers, the Father of your father's fathers." (Non-understandable tongues?)

Thank you both for your kind responses.

And I agree, if the LORD does not say to go, and yet we go, is that not disobedience?

Yet I have seen signs of this decision, that I must go. I have seen more '7s' and '33's and '37's driving home today than ever before.

And today, I decided to go.

But I may have messed that up as well. Because in my compassion for my coworkers and bosses who would suddenly be left without a marketing/communications officer to do brochures and flyers, they would have been sunk until they found another one to take my place.

The LORD commanded me, TO GO. LEAVE THIS JOB, BY THIS DAY.

Oh man what a wretched sinner I am! Because if I DO NOT go all out for my God, then is that not to me sin?! If i can't walk in complete obedience to my Father, the Creator, the very Being who also died for me so I can live, why am I still alive? What I want to do in the Spirit I cannot do because of the flesh. I want


If I cannot do the will of my Father, what good is REPENTANCE? If I cannot humble myslef to the point that I go witness to my neighbors, am I yet also sinning because I am not going willingly? I see them in their houses, everyday, and I do not know how to reach them. I went door to door, I tried to warn them, and they almost had me arrested. But I was willing to go to the prison and witness there to, I don't care anymore about myself. In fact, God has to order me to stop hurting myself and go eat something or get some water. But I can see how far my sins go, how deeply they hurt God, and how can I share this with my neighbrs? I can't beacuse they won't listen. And I don't know, how else to get inside their houses and show them what I have found about Christ. Even my own mother is not saved, and what can I do about that? I have witnessed to her twice and she rejects it. I have pleaded with God willingly, 'don't take my mother until she has been rescued' and even my dad, does not believe that we have to stock up on food, so I have had to do that all by myself, hiding it away around the house.

Can you not see, good people of prophecylink, that I am frustrated by this?! Cann you not see, how I don't know how to be obedient, or how to pray, I cannot even come to Christ because of this shame, that I know what I want to do, and if I could I would, but they reject it. They slam that door harder to the point andif they only realized, what I could share with them. if I could only find some way to share with them.

I deserve this punishment and this judgement on myself, LORD GOD, for I know what I want to do, and yet here is the door to arrest me again. They hide behind the laws of society, I can't see why these people don't REPENT......why are they all so afraid of God??!! cry:

If I can't go all out for my God, then for me it is sin. And there are so many things that are holding me down. I have to press on, I have to endure this. Ray's e-mail group was given a wonderful e-mail message containing "A Vision of the Lost" by William Booth founder of the Salvation Army. And it made me cry, about the Lost, who don't repent, and I know where they are going, and they don't WANT to be even reminded of My Christ who saves souls. And I have been reading mary K Baxter's 'A Divine Revelation of Hell' and I found, I found a horrible weed deep down inside me of unbelief, about hell, a complacency, to cool me down. And most Christians are like this, to go to this and that, and not even starve themselves and take that same money and feed another who cannot even eat. And they laugh at me, and tell me to take Prozac, they don't believe in the concentration camps here in America, but I have seen them online, they exist. They don't want to prepare food, or hide like Anne Frank. They want to celebrate birthdays and going shopping and have a good time.

And I don't want to do any of that, and I had a chance to go all out for God, and I messed it up I'm such a wretched sinner. I see all these people, I can't do all this God, I have to I have to I cant give up

WHY DIDNT I LISTEN FIVE YEARS AGO I DESERVE ALL THIS PUNISHMENT GOD AND IF YOU ARE GOING TO PUT ME IN HELL FOR DISOBEYING YOU THEN I ACCEPT IT LORD I ACCEPT IT. I DONT DESERVE TO BE CALLED A SON OF GOD OR HAVE ANY GLORY FROM YOU FOR I AM DUS T AND NOTHING BUT WALKING ASHES. i aM so frustrated i an so frustrated God. why cant i obey you God why do i do this I have to tell this group ALL My sins all my sins

I didn't go to church when you told me to on Sunday
I didn't warn my neighbors when you told me to, and when i did, i never finished the job beause i almost got arrested
I didnt quit my job outright, I got weak and let them have me work there for three more weeks
I havent been working on the audio recordings in the last three days let your will be done on this
I have been so selfish, I havet had time, ive been so busy at this job or out witnessing i havent been working on these recordings i think im up to 39 but I can go all out I can go all out for You GOD and I have not.

If I have not been going all out for you, it is blaspemy for my Walk. Because I only know how to Walk in one way, that is all out. All or none. And I havent been,to the point of death. If I could go all out to the point of my death for you God, how I wish I had nothing holding me back. I can't believe what a sinner I am

God, I am a sinner

I am not worthy to be called your son

I have gone before the entire prophecylink group and told them my sins for the accounting, and now there are witnesses to testify against me

I stand before you now God, you do your will you do your Will LORD don't hold anything back against me don't hold a single jsudgment against me God.

I want to be obedient, 33, but I cant I dont know how im such a wretched sinner i cant evben look at you in the eye

I dont knoww hat else to do, so I have come before ProphecyLink and confessed my sins, for my God, and now I stand, ready to be Judged because i have not done the will of God. I have failed.

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blue don't be so hard on yourself ,none of us are pure before god ,we all make mistakes ,some more than others ,but as long as we repent god loves us all the same,my own father is a preacher who reminds me of the prophecies when god speaks of man's church ,i cannot get thru to him or my mother no matter how hard i try ,and it saddens me,they think pride is a good thing ,to be better than someone else ,i just can't break thru the barrier that man has set up before them,i asked the lord what to tell you and he said you should fast and pray ,for how long i don't know ,but on a personal note i've seen you growing in christ daily ,no matter what you think you've been doing ,for the more we grow the more satan attacks us and i truly believe that jesus will bring you thru the trials you are now in
your friend in christ mark

Hi BlueRiver,

I am not going to tickel your ears with this message. And as you read this you will know in your heart that it is the truth, and you will know what you must do.

Now!

you cannot save them all!!

go and look at a vision that the Lord gave to me shortly after I came to the Lord, and felt His call upon my life.

http://www.barr-family.com/godsword/vision.htm

as I read for the first time "A Vision of the Lost" by William Booth founder of the Salvation Army. as posted on Ray's email, I was amazed at how simular was his vision to the vision the Lord gave me years ago.

About your job, you can still obey the Lord. You do not have to stay on that job for three more weeks. You have only to call the boss and tell him that God said that you were not to return, and then do not go in there to work, but only to pick up your pay. They will survive, and so will you. Who would you rather please? Jesus or that boss that you are leaving?? You know the answer to that, so stop living to please that boss who is a man, and start living to please Jesus who is God.

Now, stop feeling sorry for yourself, turn and start obeying Jesus Christ in all that He tells you to do. You are no more a sinner than any of the rest of us. If Jesus told you to leave your job that day, then obey and do not go back! If you believe that you have disobeyed Jesus, then stop moaning about it and Repent, I say again Repent, then accept the forgiveness that Jesus will give you, and go on with your life.

So you have 39 prophecies done, and only 1700 + more to do. You can do that in no more than 2 weeks if you stay at it.

my brother blue , we are more alike then i thought. you said it , but i didnt fully believe it.

It feels good to get all of that off of your chest huh? Thinking maybe you should tell us before God does?

I seem to be haveing the same problem my friend.

a couple days ago , after prayer and communion. Lying on my bed , i began to hear a voice speak to me. After tesing it , i knew it to be satans. and there satan talked with me.

or i should say to me. he told me how he would be there when ever i go door to door , or out in the streets , he would be there to make me afraid. when ever i witness to my family , he would be there to make me afraid. and many other things which he said , that i will not record here on prophecylink.

save i spoke that to show that it is our enemy comeing against us that stops us. We must overcome him first blue. First things First , get rid of the devils. Handle the adversary. Jesus did this BEFORE He started ministerying. He first overcame the devil on the mount of temptaion. After that He just kept him under his feet. walking all over him.

Its our enemy blue whos makeing us afraid. Its your emeny who is testifying against you. Its your Fear of God that makes you confess.

God by no means wishes to cut you off.

Blue let me share with you the way. and the Thing ive been seeking of The Lord.

Ive been afraid to speak up for the Lord many times. Im so very shy. and quiet. Very closed person. And well its been even harder for me to confess before my old friends. The ones that i would do great evils with. Its so hard being yourself in front of those who have known you as someone else. Its because of Fear that its Hard.

Anyhow , to the point of me saying this. One day i was watching a history channel study on God. And it spoke of how that God has been hidden sence the fall of adam , but now Through Jesus Christ He makes Himself Known and Seen , in a very personal Relation ship. Well this touched my heart , and i was FILLED with Love. OverFlowing.
And as i would watch tbn and so forth ( this i say shamefully ...) i would be afraid to let my friends know that i was watching tbn, because they would make fun of me , or what ever. Anyhow i just didnt feel comfortable watching or hearing about God , while my friends were around. Ahhh Lord you know the secrets of my heart , search it out and Correct me before that day.

but after being filled with Love , i wasnt afraid to let my friends see me watch and learn of God , I wasnt afraid to let my friends see the Change in me. I couldnt care less for anything else , no fear , no doubt , just Love and the Fullness. Overflowing. In that Love i can do anything.

Perfect Love casts out all Fear. Fear is what is hindering you. and me i might add.

Fear is what we have to face and overcome before God can Use us the Way He wants to. of that im convinced.

You have disobeyed God , and i will not comfort you in this. I cannot! Because i dont even comfort myself in it. But God when He has forgiven you will comfort you. He will Comfort you . Neither would any of my words mean a thing to you , because you know you have sinned , only Gods words now will help you.

Pick yourself up , this isnt the End of you! Its Bearly the Begginning. Yea for both of us. Many times this month ( let alone the years) i have reached the point that your at. Just wondering how that my brothers on prophecylink have it all figured out , that there all doing what God wants , and here i am , doing NOTHING! what a shame.

Its not from Lack of want , that i do nothing , thats For Sure!

Anyhow yesterday i was called by name for the First time. I wasnt called Ken , but rather He called me Joel. He Renamed me. And called me by it. Praise God!

Thats what God does. He calls things that be not as though they were. You know what blue? Remember the prophecy you gave me when i was ready to die? How that the Lord told me to Prophecy? and to sharpen my sword? Are you not where i was when God told me that?

People dont understand it. And its SOOOO HARD. When it seems like the Most High is against you , and that your not doing what your supposed to , and your Getting Warnings from God , Fear when you sleep , if you can even get sleep. Fear when you awake. Sorrow , Depression , Saddness , lust. Dispair , Desire , Desire for God , For Life , for Salvation.

To speak when your in the pit , to speak when you feel youve hit the bottom. To speak when it seems God Himself is against you. To speak in Faith , and in Hope. Its hard , but it gets easer , once you start speaking. And everytime it comes down to it again , its Hard again , and as you start speaking it gets easer. Every time this comes against you its the same way.

When i call things that be not , its not a time when i feel and see and think that God is going to do all of this , and show me mercy , and Deliver me. In fact it ALWAYS seems the oposite. So i useualy dont know if im being a fool or not. But i reach out like a fool , i do! I reach out like a FOOL. I reach out and Believe and Trust in Gods Goodness , even though its seems Hes against me. Thats pretty foolish huh?

When i feel , and it seems that God is not going to be able to use me. I say God is going to Use me for His Glory , Hes going to Use me to Prepare His People , and Warn the World and Lead many to Christ , just as He said He wants to. I convince myself.

Now when i say i feel , well now you can see what i mean. Right now you seem to be where im at many of times. Its Overwhelming , Theres no trace of hope. but this is how i speak to myself in these times.

I prophecy!

I call things that be not as though they were!

Satan has no defence against such. HE CANT STOP IT!!!

how can satan stop it? his whole attack is feelings , emotions , deception , temptation. Thats his bag of tricks that he works with in many ways.

But i TRUST NOT in my flesh. NO not by a long shot , ive already fallen to many times to see that , i can do nothing.

Nay but i speak like this

Lord Jesus You are my Trust. And my Hope and Shield. Lord you do know my heart , You search the deep things in me. Bring it all to Light , and Deliver my of my sins.

Ive seen that i am nothing, and Lord im ashamed. Though i feel Fear , Fear that you are against me , I will yet speak in Hope that you are For me. And that you will deliver me. I trust in you as a son trusts in his Father. If i decieve myself , let me know , or else i wont be moved. I will keep Trust in you , and you shall prepare me , and Use me for your Glory. to the Fullness of Your Delight , You have prepared me for a time as this. And all the Glory will be to you , and even the Heavens know , that you broght me from nothing. And how so many times i have disobeyed , and yet You have Mercy on me! You have Mercy on me and i Praise you For it. Long ago i should have died. Long ago you would have been rightoues to turn your back on me.

Me and blue need your help Lord. You see us both they we are both stiff necked. Hard headed. and Fearfull. Lord before all here , before all the heavens and the Earth , for Your Glory and Your Glory alone , Use us. Give us the Upper hand over Fear , over this devil let us rien. All Glory Goes to you God. We only want to Please you , Lord if not for your Love for us , then for your Love to those we will reach , Use us! Teach us! Most of all Fill us With Love , and Wisdom. That we may wittness as you command.

I will encourage myself in You Lord , and all may see that this is Your Work , we are Your Work. The Work of Your Mercy and Love. And i doubt God that any of us are worthy. i doubt that any of us do fully obey you as we should , Yet i use it as no exuse.

I reach out in Faith Lord , and i will call these things that be not , I pray you Bring it to pass by your Own Will. Inlighten Our eyes. Forgive our sins , Comfort us , and Prepare us for tommaro.

We Praise you Lord either way , you have been more than Good to us. Il Praise you till the End Lord. Il Hope in You , until you give me the Word other Wise, For i will believe anything you say. We Fear you Lord , and We Love you , Help us to obey.

Even now we need your Mercy , Glory to God the Mercyfull. The Almighty , full of Loveing Kindness. Full of Judgement and Rightousness. High above all We Praise you , do talk with us. Thank You Lord , Thank You Our Father. Doubtless You will Clear all things up for us , In Jesus name let Your Will be done

im sure by the time you read this blue , the Lord would have already comforted you. And i would like to talk with you about some more stuff. but we can talk about that in pm.

For now its late and i still need to pray to God more about this. I do Trust in Him.

Praise you Lord Jesus , Praise You Lord Jesus , thank You For your Kindness

joel what you said about your friends is so very true ,for i used to run with some very bad people ,and it's very hard to get thru to these people , but these people since they know me tell me everything thats going on for some think i am how i used to be ,so far i've only been able to get thru to 2 of them they have become very good friends that read the bible everyday ,and when the lord wants he he has me talk to them thru the holy spirit ,but because of running with these people i'm able to talk to what society would call the seedier side of life and certain ones have been in my prayers for 3 years now ,why?only god knows,anyway my one friend had a dream where he was in a fenced in stadium and being persecuted for believing in jesus,then had another dream where he was floating up thru the air and looked over and seen his mother floating up with other people,i think we all know what his dreams are about,but god had us do things in our past for a reason ,i believe i was the way i was so i can help people who never knew about the lord that society would shy away from