It has been through difficult times, emotionally and through much heart ache and loneliness that I believe the enemy meant to destroy me with, that the Lord used to bring be closer to him.
I still think about it and pray about it, and pray for the ones who hurt me.
I love them, and want the Lord to save them.
Even though I feel lonely and sad in some ways.
I also know and feel that the Lord stepped in and saved me from a fate worse then death.
I honestly feel that and believe that.
But it is hard sometimes, but the truth is only the Lord knows best.
I can’t really explain to anyone exactly what I mean, But I know the Lord was with me all through it and watching out for me.
And I wasn’t close to him at the time, but slowly during that time I was moving towards him closer and closer, not in the other direction, the direction the enemy wanted.
I am better off now even though I’m still lonely.
This may be my cross to bare, I don’t know but I will bare it if that’s what he wills.
I pray for an end to the loneliness and for Christian friends.
But ultimately I pray for his will or I try to, I want to want his will anyway.
Only God knows what is to come, only he can see all the way to the end.
It’s only God who can see all the way to the end of the tunnel.
If I knew it all then I might see, but I don’t.
I have faith in the Lord, that is my choice; he’s whom I pick.
Others choose themselves, or some other god or philosophy to follow.
There is nothing in this life or on this earth you can count on, I mean really count on, to take care of you or your children.
Not other people, they are human and will fail you.
Not money it comes, it goes.
Not your family, not your job, not Tony Robbins, not even yourself.
You may think you can count on you, but then one day you find a lump and the Dr. tells you, you don’t have long to live.
That’s when you’ll say, now what and now who will take care of and provide for my children.
If you have the Lord, you won’t have to worry. He always keeps his word.
When everything was lost, is when I found all I will ever need.
I heard the following on the radio yesterday.
The subject was were your heart is; Lott's wife was so close and knew so much, but in the end she missed out because of what she really loved. In the end her heart won out over everything she new.
The heart will always control the mind, and will always win the battle.
Where your heart is, is where you will be lead.
Keep Jesus as the love of your life.
God Bless,
MerMer Rae