Alexseeker - I have trouble hearing/understanding what the Lord says most of the time, but I just want to tell you that when I read Ray's email about his vision for you, the first thing I thought of was "communication". I don't know what that may mean to you, but I thought I would share. I will pray, too.
I, also, would like prayer and any word the Lord may say to you, Ray, or anyone else. I posted this prayer request on the "list", but I thought it couldn't hurt to post it here, too. thank you all in advance.
I am in trouble financially and because of this my husband has said to me recently that “everyone would be so much better off if I were dead”. (this meaning he is feeling very useless as a man and his life insurance would get us out of trouble). This is very concerning to me. I don’t believe he would actually do anything to himself (he is a believer – but backslidden), but I am very sad he feels this way.
A little background for you: I have been the bread-winner in my household since the beginning of our marriage 11 years ago. My husband has had great trouble getting and keeping jobs. Sometimes his fault and other times not. I used to work two jobs to make up for the loss of his wages. I am not able to do this any longer – it took its toll on me and I need to rest now with just one full time job. I harbored a lot of resentment toward my husband when I was doing this – but I have asked for forgiveness and am now at peace from the Lord about it. My husband cannot seem to provide for us monetarily and my income isn’t enough anymore. I really need him to be the head of the household, but we are just spiraling downward. I am not sure what the Lord wants me to do. We are on the verge of bankruptcy, and I am scared and don’t know what else to do but pray.
