been praying my tushy off - it seems like we are all being attacked violently.

My husband is lost - lying to me, not working - and now talking about a separation. I cried/prayed myself to sleep last night, and went to work with my eyes swollen shut from the crying. He keeps saying what a bad wife I am - but I haven't done anything. All my friends and family are pressuring me to divorce him - they are saying they haven't seen me happy for years, and that he is verbally/mentally abusing me. I love my husband, and I am trying to do what is right. It is hard - I feel extremely depressed. We cannot pay our bills.

Please pray that I can withstand these attacks. I feel weaker and weaker every day. thank you and may God be with you all.

Cheryl,

I know that you are right now receiving all kinds of advice. Some may be good, but most will be absolutely Awful. I will not give any kind of advice on what to do about the situation with your husband.

What I will tell you is that there are very many of us who are praying for you to draw even closer to Jesus than you are right now, and I know that you are close to Jesus even now.

It is true that many of us are under serious attack by Demonic Forces, I look around me and see it increasing in those who I know personally. I read letters from many who write to me, who are fighting against the demons who are trying to disrupt their lives.

And those demonic forces are sending many well meaning people to us, to try causing doubt in our minds and hearts. They ask in one form or another "Why does God allow this?," and "God won't answer your prayers!", and "You just need to pray harder."

I tell you that you do not need to pray harder, for Jesus hears you the first time, even when you whisper. And that God allows this because it will somehow draw you ever closer to HIM. And God always answers the prayers of His Children, just not in the way that we may expect, and not always in the way that we want.

I can tell you that Jesus is walking right by your side! If you reach out your arm you will be touching him. He is that close to you. But even so, that does not releave the pain and suffering that you are going through right now. We can point out all the saints in the bible who suffered, but that will not ease the pain that you have right now.

What I can say is that there has never been a True child of Jesus Christ who has not been tested, sent through the fires of refining. But you ask, how is what I am going through now testing and refining me?? And I have to say that I do not know!! I only know that you will come out stronger at the end. I can say that because I trust Jesus Christ to pick you up and to carry you when the load seems too heavy to bare.

Only the Holy Lord God knows what is in the future, and only the Lord God knows if what you are going through right now may in some way cause your husband to come to Jesus for salvation in the future. For I know that you have been praying for his salvation.

We will continue to keep you in our prayers for the Holy Lord's Perfect Will to be done in your situation. Not as you would have it, but as Jesus would have it.

Cheryl wrote:

Thank you so much Rev. Barr - and everyone else who has been praying for me. It means a lot.

My husband and I have been talking and he is no longer talking about separating. He is looking for work and has apologized to me up and down. I don't have much trust in him right now because of the lying he has done, but I have great trust in JESUS! I was hurting very badly and have some peace now. The bills still aren't getting paid - and there is much work to do on our marriage, but I don't have that awful "I'm in the pit-of-hell" feeling. (you know the one...) My friends are all mad at me, of course, for not leaving him and they think I'm acting like the stereotypical abused wife who won't leave the jerk. I love them for caring, but it is hard for unbelievers to understand "but God told me not to". (I opened the bible and the first verse I read was "and a wife must not separate from her husband" - if THAT is not an answer I don't know what is...) My believing parents are even hard to convince.

It is weird - it is because of my husband, that I came to Christ. His belief and him pulling me into church is why I am born again today. Now, my husband says he believes in "God and Jesus and all that stuff" - but he does not believe that the bible is the inerrant Word of God. He says humans have messed with it too much - and he doesn't trust that man has interpreted it correctly. How does someone who used to be so on fire for the Lord (bible and all) think this now? My husband is an intelligent man and this baffles me.

Anyway, thank you again - the prayers are working!!!

Cheryl,
I understand what your husband is saying because I heard the exact thing coming from my husband. He was a preacher's kid, of all things. He had heard all of his life to trust in God and not the world but somehow he started believing that the people who wrote the bible were all wrong and that they wrote it with their own opinions, not through God. Just pray that God will open his heart to hear Him. I had a lot of prayer warriors out there praying for my husband and God softened his heart and now he is in a Bible study with me and going to church again. He is even taking the initiative to lead a bible study next week. God can heal your husband's heart so he can become a believer again. He may not answer our prayers the way we want Him to but he will always answer our prayers, just like Rev. Barr. I will keep you in my prayers. Stay close to the Lord and lean on Him and only Him.
With love in Christ,
Laydebug2