I am completely sad inside, I feel like I am losing a major battle. I do not know what to do, I feel lost. I feel like I am getting more sad with each giving day. I wish I was not so weak, I need a lot of prayer, please tell me if God put anything on your heart to tell me. I just desire to truly live for God and not feel so depress. I need peace and hope, not to feel like I am living in a small black hole. Satan makes me feel like everything that I am feeling is my fault. I cannot live for him completely without your prayer.

Thanks

Your sister in Christ Jesus,

Yolanda Murphy

look at your sadness as if it could always be worse,for whatever happens could always be worse,and thank god for it not being worse than it is
yours in christ mark

thats Sound advise mark!!

star , remember Jonah? He was in the belly of hell , imagine that! in the belly of a fish for 3 days. How then did he get out of that mess? He lifted up his voice and gave thanks to God.

Sis i know all about depression and those spirits of sadness , heh , i think we all do. They do come against all of us , and it feels good to self loath , it really does , But it angers God when we self loath. This is a rough battle that i hate fighting , that i often go through. You have to fight! We have to fight it. Do as mark counseled you , as the Lord God led his heart , and give thanks to God for all that He has given you , and even though it doesnt feel like it , Praise God for being there with you and not leaveing you.

This depression is a rough battle in the mind. Tough stuff , but it passes , and comes again , and passes again. Its good to be reminded that they are just devils makeing us feel this way. Never the less , let us turn our hearts to God and not decieve ourselfs.

The hope you are searching for is already in yourself...just believe in the Holy Spirit. Rereading your post it reminded me of the verse I just posted on here the other day from Romans:

Chap. 8
[23] And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body.
[24] For we are saved by hope: but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for?
[25] But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it.
[26] Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.


The Hope for returning to be with our Lord in Heaven some day, is the Hope that we all seek and yearn for. It's not something that God will reveal to us in our everyday life all the time...if He did, then where would our faith in Him stand? We can never lose that Hope. No matter how sad you may feel...no matter what physically or mentally happens to you here on this earth, if you believe in Jesus, God, the Holy Ghost...then you must continue to have that hope to someday be with them.

Everyday we all take for granted what we have...for some it may be a lot, and for others it may be nothing...but we all have Jesus Christ, who died for US. The world is a pretty crazy place right now, and it will only get worse as we know. So when your Spirit groans, as the bible says, do not be worried, sad, or afraid...but welcome it as a sign that you belong to our Father. The devil likes to hide things from us, to misinterpret things in our minds...to make use feel crazy, sad, lost, depressed...but through these times we must stay strong and show God just how much we love Him. If you fight the good battle and defeat the enemy, How great of a work you will do! If you look through all the darkness around you, and find that little light....how it will shine! It may not be a huge battle...but it matters just as much as any. You are a part of God's army, so stay strong in battle, arm yourself with the armour of God everyday and you will overcome any harm that comes your way.

Yours in Christ,
Stephanie