I cannot sleep for the last several days maybe even weeks. I keep thinking about Matt , I feel like he is stressing or is confused about something. I know I am right because he asked me to pray for him. And I can always feel when something is off on someone I love even if they are in another state. But I can feel emotions of strangers I just meet too. It is just not as strong so I can always brush it off. It is now 12:37 I hope I somehow fall asleep, I cannot take sleeping pills, and the last thing I drunk was orange around nine. It totally sucks but I felt God wanted me to pray harder for him yesterday too. He will not go out of my mind, I will not let satan destroy him. I love him regardless if he is my soulmate or not, I can feel satan hates him for some reasons, maybe his true calling is a pastor or something. All I know I is God is telling me to pray for him.

I could not sleep all night, finally fell asleep. Then God woke me up , had a urge to write him a letter. Sent it this morning, he said that I made him feel better about everything. I feel like I am beginning to have a breakthrough on life. I am not sure what God's plans are for me, but I trust him.