JUNE 11, 2003

This morning I spoke to the Lord about my feelings about the world. I said to him, 'Lord, I hope I am wrong about the things I feel I have heard from you. If these terrible destructive things do not happen then I will feel so much better. Too much sorrow I have seen in the visions and dreams. It would be difficult to see that I am very crazy but not as difficult as the things I have seen in the visions and dreams.' Then I asked the Lord to show me if my visions were hallucinations and if my dreams were just dreams. He only showed me his sorrow for the times in which the world exists in. I say, 'Lord, are you really going to do these things in the earth?' He says, 'It is the world that has done this to themselves. In mercy, I have held back the full blow of sins consequences in the earth but it is getting closer to a time when I must allow the blow to come in order to save the people of this earth for they seem to take the gospel of peace for granted. Remember the dream you had of the pope and how he was being shoved aside by people who had more important things to do and how you and your husband were the only two people in the room that gave him respect and notice. He even was dressed in white and stood out among all in the room and yet they did not see him. He spoke to you and he encouraged you. You praised him for his good works and there was joy in both your hearts. The pope was symbolic of me and my gospel and you and your husband are symbolic of my remnant that has not lost sight of who I am. And you bring joy to me and I, joy to you. We know one another, though all around us find our affairs unimportant and meaningless. This is symbolic of the state the world is slipping into in response to my gospel. Just as they have done in the past, my people became blessed because they sought me and served me and did not forget my statutes. But then they became proud and began to forsake me and they took me for granted and have forgetton that all good things come from me and not by their own hand. Many proclaim me but their hearts are far from me and their prayers are but a faint echo to me. So now, I must do what I must do in order to save as many as I can. I must no longer withold the judgement that their hands have wrought. My heart is grieved and my sorrow is so great. I do not seek destruction, death or darkness but I am a loving Father; and there is not a person alive that is not ever so dear to my soul so I will allow consequence and judgement because I am merciful and loving. There is no other way. The days grow nearer for all to come to pass that has been prophesied.'

I feel his sorrow and have such a bond with the sorrow for the Lord departed this sorrow to me a month before the 911 attacks happened and it has not left me. I feel blessed to be bonded to him with the sorrow for I long to comfort him in his grief. I apologize for man. I pray for the world and I tell the Lord I will serve him despite all else. He will always be first and I will follow him where he wants me to go, always. I pray for my children and husband and dedicate them once again to him and pray for him to lead me in my relationships with them so I can help them do all he wants them to do. I feel the urge to hug the Lord. I don't think I have ever had that urge before. It seems silly to me but it is very real and from my heart. I pray that the Lord would show me his joy for I long to bring him joy and I long to see him being happy. He will not show me his joy at this time. But he encourages me that a day of joy will come. He speaks to me:

'Remember the joy I showed you in church that morning. As my people praised me, you saw my Spirit within them and my power and energy and joy and victory? It amazed you and you wept in such great joy for you were surprised at such great power and victory like you had not seen before in my people where my Spirit dwells. There was no doubt in that moment when my Son spoke to you and said, 'This is how it ends. This is the victorious army of the Lord.' You were filled with hope and joy and energy and strength like you had not seen before. Remember when I sent my angels to tend to you after you had had many visions of the things that are to come. You were afraid and overwhelmed by much of it. My angels came and ministered peace and strength. You immediately relaxed and I spoke to you and told you that I was capable of caring for my people despite the dark time that lies ahead for them. I reminded you of times when my angels had given important messages, led people to safety and ministered strength and much more when they needed it. I told you, 'I will take care of my people and give all that is needed.' Just as I fed Elijah by ravens to sustain him and gave bread and water to my people when they were led out of Egypt, I will also be with you and for those who do not forsake me, I will not forsake them and they will have great victory like has never been seen in this age. I am the Lord your God and my power is great to sustain. Remember the visions I gave to you of the women who were wisely storing supplies and food and they gave my people sustenance in a time of lack? I showed you that I am speaking to my people everywhere concerning the things to come. I am making preparation. I also have shown you and your mother how I am able to heal physically. Regardless of the things that fail in the world and may no longer be available to my people because they make choices to serve me, I will heal and strenghten mightily by my Spirit for I am able to do so and will not hold back from my children. I tell you to remember these things. Hold on to them tightly. For they are truth. The darkness to come is for the lost and the wayward to enable them to come to repentance. My promise to you who are faithful is victory and supply. This is joy. This is the joy in my heart and the joy in yours. Blessed is he who will hear the words, 'Well done, good and faithful servant.' Endure. Endure to the end. I give you these visions and words as sweet remembrances that are truth and food in times of weariness as darkness comes. I will bring them to mind to you again, when you need them. You bring them to mind to my people. This is your work. Encourage my people who will not understand and who will be hurting and struggling for the sorrows of the world will be so numerous. But I give you truth of joy and you must feed it to my people. This is joy.'

I thank the Lord for all things he tells me and shows me. I pray for the world and for the church. I pray for my role in this dark time that is coming.

Reading testimony of Kim, something felt in my chest, and next Bible versicles coming to my mind:

Isaiah 65:17-19

For, behold, I create new heavens and a new earth: and the former shall not be remembered, nor come into mind.

But be ye glad and rejoice for ever in that which I create: for, behold, I create Jerusalem a rejoicing, and her people a joy.

And I will rejoice in Jerusalem, and joy in my people: and the voice of weeping shall be no more heard in her, nor the voice of crying.

Zephaniah 3.17

The LORD thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will rest in his love, he will joy over thee with singing.

Daddy God, forgive all our sins, in Jesus Christ name. So be it.