I read about this is the news paper a couple of months ago, actually someone else was reading and put down the paper and said something about how bad is was, no one there thought it was a good thing everyone was like this world is just getting so bad.
It made everyone feel cynical you know.
None of them are religious people either.
Everyone is noticing how bad it’s getting, they don’t look at it as much in terms of God, but they don’t feel comfortable with it either.
The other night I saw a little clip of something that was coming up on the news, it was a new kind of business thing.
This woman was driving around in a van that had TV screens or something like that, I’m not sure exactly how it worked I didn’t see the actual news report.
But his woman drives around in kind of a mobile billboard van thing that advertises porn web-sites.
They showed her driving down the street and the images that were flashing on the side of the van were sexual, not pornographic but you knew what they were about.
Images of people who were obviously nude in various positions and situations but you couldn’t actually see anything.
This van would be driving down the street any street anytime, for anyone to see children or anyone.
Not everyone is okay with kind of stuff, but they still don’t really speak out or ever do anything.
Nothing really seems to able to get anyone attention, they just talk about how bad it’s getting and then go on with their day to day routine.
It’s like watching everyone you know in a tunnel and only you can see the light from the train that’s coming.
The porn industry makes so much money, if you do the math.
If you look at the amount of people, the amount of people who say they believe in God and the amount of money the porn industry generates. Then you realize that people who are in church every Sunday are also some of the people supporting porn in some form or another.
One time I was watching something about the Harvest Crusade on TV and marveling at all the people there.
And a thought just hit me over the head at least half of them regularly put money into porn.
It has to be the numbers just don’t add any other way.
Many believers who do go to church don’t get it.
They just don’t think there is anything wrong with it and because not everyone who is into it becomes a pervert or sex addict they don’t listen to any logic you put to them, they don’t see any proof of what your saying.
I was talking to one of my cousins who said her boyfriend looks at playboy or porn if it’s not weird stuff they’re looking at or gay stuff or child stuff then that’s okay, what’s wrong with it.
I was floored I couldn’t believe she was saying this.
There is no excuse the people around her when she was a child had failed her.
Including my self apparently, well I set her straight at that moment but I know she either forgot about it or chose not think about anymore or asked others in the family who probably said well you know it’s not a good thing but it is normal everyone does it.
My family is kind of well a little bit in denial and they tend to sugar coat everything.
Like when my other cousin got married his wife to be had a batchlorette party and her friends hired a stripper.
I didn’t go but we heard about it later.
No one said anything except well you know everyone just does that now. She was marring my second cousin whose parents are ministers.
They really do not like to say anything to anyone.
I get the impression They believe if you do the right thing and if your a good example and you pray for people, then you are witnessing to people and the Holy Spirit will convict them and they will come around in time.
I do believe they have a point but sometimes I wonder if it’s really just out of convenience like they are choosing to forget about teaching and correcting in a loving way.
My cousin had a few bad experiances early on when she first started going to church as a teenager were people judged her wrongly and they did, so now even though she is the wife of a pastor she doesn’t want to do that to anyone else.
I feel maybe the enemy can use what she went through to cause her not to do the Lords work.
Lately what comes to my mind about her is the story of Samuel, and the man who raised him, the man did not rebuke or correct is children etc. I’m sure you know the story and what happened to that man.
I feel afraid that my cousin is temped in that area of her life.
She is such a good person and loves the Lord with all her heart, but the enemy is attacking us all on some level.
I feel that people are convicted in their hearts yes, but at the same time the enemy and our flesh are looking for an excuse to keep on doing what we want to.
And if you are a pastor and you don’t say anything, even if you don’t do it yourself and live a good example the enemy will use you do keep that person from the knowledge they need to repent in the first place.
People are looking for any excuse and we really should try not to be a tool of the enemy.
I don’t really know how to talk to them affectively, I try when I can but I don’t know if they are listening.
I feel like the enemy is winning with Godley people as well as everyone else. It’s like anyway he can get in.
Like he can get you to do the wrong thing, thinking that you’re doing the right thing.
I don’t mean to sound perfect or judgmental about my family, I don’t think I’m superior and know everything and I don’t want to talk badly of them.
May God forgive me if I ever do.
It’s just that I get the vibe that people don’t have any knowledge about what to repent of or what to try and turn from.
It reminds me of the verse were in the last days there will be a biblical or scriptural famine, it says that God causes this because they have rejected him for so long.
And the one that says my people will be lost through ignorance or lack of knowledge.
I believe we are literally seeing right before our eyes this actually happening.
Sorry I just got inspired by the adultery cards thing and got on a roll, again.
I come from a God believing family, yet I still feel all alone in this.
God Bless,
MerMer Rae
